2012 Reflection

Hi Friends:

As I stood in the shower tonight I had so many different thoughts to go through my mind. Most of them were pertaining to the losses that I have experiences in my life during this year. (They did no feel good at all) During this year we lost our home, I lost a few friends, I lost a job, I lost my favorite aunt and overall I felt as tho I lost my independence. During this time I managed to keep a smile on my face and faith that everything will work itself out. What a year 2012 has been for me and my family~

Every circumstance has brought about an opportunity to learn and to gain strength from the pain. As I continue to increase the intensity of my weight loss journey I am excited. As I read through the various groups that I am a part in, all members agree that if you put your mind o accomplishing a juice fast then you will be successful. I am anticipating midnight so that I can have a glass of apple juice that I made during lunch today. I do so well when I prepare ahead of time for my meals. (juice)

So far I have lost 22 pounds while juicing and I am hoping that I can release another 25-30 pounds over the next thirty days. I feel as though I owe it to myself to turn the corner of healthy living for once and for all. Above I mentioned that my favorite aunt passed away, she was constantly concerned with her weight. She has periods that she would go up in weight, others when she would go down and some when she felt just right. I intend to dedicate my steps to seek healthy living to her..she has always inspired me to seek higher education.
With that thought I dove into research pertaining to methods to detox the body. One that I learned about is called juicing. I have been successful with a few fast during 2012. However, I think that I will be more successful if I implement additional methods. For instance, preparing juices during the night, also to have more vegetable juices during the earlier part of the fast as the detox method. Also, working out while juicing is an added incentive and assist with loosing the pounds and possibly toning the body.

It's 11:06p and my entire 2013 will be dedicate to a more healthy lifestyle prompted by the late Auntie Bett~

 Here is to the world's greatest aunt,looking forward to dedication and resiliency as I move into seeking a more healthy lifestyle.

2012 Memorable Moments~

Overweight Photos from 2007-2012

Friends:

I want to show these photos with you so that we can view where I started. Also, I will be looking at these photos to remind me of where I do NOT want to go back to. If you can relate I don't have a problem with you sharing your thoughts and your journey as well. It is nice to know that others are struggling with the same  addiction to food. I made a comment in a weight loss group that I am that, "I love food but it has used and abuse me". That is so true on so many levels, it is time for me to take my body back and to become comfortable in my own skin in whatever clothes that I am wearing. I don't think that I really take pride in my clothing because I don't like drawing attention to myself. I cannot stand the flabby arms that I have and I definitely cannot handle the cellulite legs that makes my stomach sick each time that I see them. However, I know that I have the power to change these features..so with your support, God's strength and my will power we will get through this journey of healthy living. I once heard that we all and have a bad and good aspect of ourselves. However, the one that has the most success is the one that we feed the most. Therefore, I intend to feed the good in and around me so that it can grow!


In a wedding and feeling stuffed-2011

Preparing to walk down the isle in rehearsal and I do not feel well at all as I am surrounded by several college friends,2011

 
Here I am prior to starting my first juicing journey, my weight on this date is 218, 2012.

Here I am running my non-profit organization always working to put a smile on the face of others, 2011.

Here I am with my organization, walking and raising awareness about Breast Cancer. We managed to raise a nice size donation for the Susan G. Komen foundation on this year,2010

Here I am on my second third time doing ZUMBA, I am quite sure that I am  230 pounds at the least here. My knees were killing me after this event, too much weight, 2010

Here I am in with my mother in law in Sunny South Florida..I am feeling so flabby on this picture, 2009

Here I am with the Queen of Sister Locks and all that I can see is my huge hips..2010

Here I am at a Breast cancer awareness walk in Miami, FL and I am not feeling very good about my appearance, 2010.

 

I could barely breath in those jeans, 2010.

Too many hips and I am not comfortable at all,2007.

Check out all of the clothes, I don't want to e see and I am so uncomfortable in my skin on this photo,2009.

Here is my wedding day, when I view this picture all that I can see is how large and undefined my arms are, 2007.

Here is my graduation day with my Masters degree and when I view this photo I see a very fat round face, 2008.

Here I am in my friends wedding and I cannot stand the small head and big body look. I purposely put this picture on here to see how I don't want to be viewed by others,2011.

*No more of these hips, this fat face and those flabby arms..I am taking my body back~

Closing out 2012

Hi Friends:

I am sure that you all knew that I would be checking in at some point. This has been a rocky year with the on again and off again healthy lifestyle. I am so tired of being a motivator through words (I am a life coach). In 2013 I would like to motivate others through my actions. I would like women to see me and say wow..."you have lost so much weight, how did you do it". I am done as of today talking to others about the effects of juicing and how it could potentially serve as a preventative measure if given the opportunity.

Standing at 6'0, I know that being over two hundred pounds is over weight. No matter, how cute my face is and how tall I am to hide the weight..that is not cute nor is it healthy. Each time I walk to the shower during bath time and I view myself in the shower I become unhappy with what I see. I do not want a life filled with cellulite and hiding behind pants and tights. I am so thankful to women that wears shorts because they keep me saying, this year I will get into those shorts and wear them with pride. However, I know that I will not wear them with pride if my legs look like I've been in a car accident due to cellulite.

So, I have been reading and thinking while thinking and reading..The time is now..my first step to moving into this journey is to pray without ceasing. I know that I have not seen my body at 170 in such a long time that I would definitely need my creator to bring it back to me. Another thing that I will need is to love myself and to show my body how much I love it by massaging myself and brushing my skin as well as talking to my body.

While thinking, your mind wants you to do everything that others have used and been successful with. In my Oprah Winfrey voice, the one thing that I know to be true is..I need to find what will work for me and  not what works for others. Therefore, I have been mentally  been praying for a transformation in my life over the next 60 days. This has consisted of goals and planning to utilize a body and or food journal to get through these days ahead. I have noticed that the more time away from food, the less attached one becomes.

Therefore, my goal is to get into a zone that consist of less talking about my transformation and my plans ahead. My plan is to make make moves and to discuss them later. Rather than the other way around that I have done for many years. I come from a family of talkers..everyone likes to boast about the things that they have done or are in the process of doing. My dad once said, "Baby you walk the walk rather than talk the talk". This thought will stay in my head and I will not turn my dad into a lie. In fact, I will cause him to say, "she is still doing her thing".

One very important strategy that I have found that works with success is to plan ahead. During 2012, I did three juice fast: they consisted of (10 days) (15-30 days) and recently I did a (7) day fast. During all of these segments I was successful and I lost weight, however when I started eating I was not successful. I have tried a plant based diet, I have tried somewhat of a vegan diet, then I tried a meat-less diet. The goal this time around is to complete a fast as I have set out and then to acquire a coach by the name of Shelley Parris Williams from https://www.facebook.com/iNlifeConnection. I have spoken to her and I think that she has made a transformation in life that has afforded her the opportunity to help others to reach their  healthy living goals.

Over the next sixty days I will journal here and share with you my thoughts and circumstances during this journey. I plan to do a few videos and to provide information that has allowed me to make it throughout the day. I know that there will be days that I won't want to make it, but it is my hope that I can e lifted by a friend that is on the same journey.

During the past two days I have been going through photos that capture my gain at it's highest. Because I plan to put an end to the on again off again and to support others through their journey. Stay tuned..I will post those photos for your viewings.

Speak to you soon friends-
12-28-12
PJ